Some Things I Am Working On and Future Plans

    Back in September of 2025, I started on a bunch of patterns and testing, but ultimately focused on one for Skyrim's game anniversary of 11/11. With it being a new year some of those patterns have been slowly starting to debut. I have more on the horizon that I'm trying to test and finish, both fanart and original works. All in various stages of development and testing.

    Some are in the final stages, only needing photography or written tutorials finished and finalized. Others are still sitting drafted but untested. Waiting for me to finish other projects, or awaiting materials. 

   While I gave myself a target date with the Sweetroll and stuck to a schedule for release, I'm not so much doing that with these other projects. In order to prevent burn out while balancing homeschool and other responsibilities. I've slowed down. I'm not into hustle culture and firmly believe rest is important. That said, stuff is ongoing and underway, some closer to being finished then others, but we're not rushing towards the destination. 

    This year I hope to be more productive overall but in a healthy way. 2021 was a great year for me productivity wise but I ultimately injured my wrist and drawing hand, giving it nerve damage. I ended up on a long hiatus with both traditional art and digital art, which suuuucked! I think it was because I was being too overzealous. So in order to learn my lesson, I'm going to be pacing myself, and resting.

    As for traditional and digital art, I'm currently slowly working on some digital art courses over at Paintable.cc. If you are interested in check out digital art courses check out my invite link: https://paintable.mn.co/share/UvXRzLw7QMuh02ZC?utm_source=manual That place gave me such a huge level up in my art back in 2020 and I want to continue working on it. (Once again, just a reminder, this is not a paid endorsement and I am not sponsored.) I'm not doing art commissions, I gave up on that a long time ago. I got a lot of them in high school when I was... honestly looking back at it, terrible at art. Hahaha. But these days, with all the scams I just don't even want to deal with it.

    This was on of the last pieces I worked on before I took a break. It took a good month and half to complete. I had to go back and fix things later too. I went blind painting this. I went in with the intention to replicate traditional art. A personal challenge. In a world where content has become commodified, and algorithms feed us short form content and slop because they found out how to push quantity over quality for profit while keeping people addicted to social media. Or even AI slop dominating every space, I made the rebellious decision to stop trying to do art for external validation. 

    Part of healing from the cult was tapping into that inner child and doing the things I wanted to do but was afraid to, like fanart or completely nerd out obsessively for instance. And in healing those wounds, no longer seeking approval from authority figures in my life whether peers or not, that and not seeking external validation from them either. So this was for me. To reclaim art. To rely only on internal validation, for myself. It's slow, it's meaningful, and I made it a meditative experience.

    I didn't use control z, if I made mistakes, I repainted over my mistakes. Until about the very end. I got really sick and forgot to lock my keyboard out one night. I think I used it like a couple times for the whole piece at the very end like the last half hour or so, it wasn't long... But everything is one brush challenge, no blur, no blend, no smudge, and mostly no control z, and everything you see there has been done meticulously, layering paint in order to give the illusion that blending, smudging, and blurring have taken place. During one brush challenge I chose one textured brush, and all I was able to do was vary opacity and size.

    I'd like to do this again soon. Another long haul piece. I enjoyed not rushing, vibing, and taking my time. It was a huge learning experience. 

    So hopefully this year I can squeeze in more of a rotation between art, sewing, quilting, and crafting in various pursuits as I work more on finding myself and healing.

Cross Posting Crochet and Knitting Patterns

     I've created a page here: Crochet and Knitting: Patterns and Charts All of my patterns are posted in US terms.

    It will contain both crochet and knitting patterns that will redirect you to Ravelry. It's divided into crochet and knitting sections, as well as original art versus fan art. I cannot guarantee that all of the patterns are up to snuff, at least some of the older ones. When I started writing my stuff down, I didn't have anyone to test things along side me or to give me feedback. Especially since my earlier years writing patterns, I may not have been the best. I tried to stay within standard. If you find mistakes or discrepancies you are welcome to message me on Ravelry. I'll be quicker to respond over there. 

    But now that I have more experience I might later go through and comb through everything and update them. Not to get ahead of myself though. I have a ton of other things on my plate currently speaking. So I want to finish up that queue of stuff first.

    Below area some example works of my crochet and knitting. Thank you for reading.

Colorable Bookmarks

    A while back, I started to trace and ink my own photography. (I know how to draw.) I'm not usually big on tracing unless I'm tracing my own work to transfer it or reproduce it onto another medium. Anyways, a lot of my bookmarks came from a personal necessity to have markers in my house. I'm constantly looking for something to shove into my books. Usually toilet paper or a napkin which is so tacky.

    That, and this particular project was helping me cope with a lot. It was allowing me to mindlessly draw without pressure because I was going through a lot of heavy s*** at the time. I noticed when my mental health is in the pits, it makes my drawing very inconsistent. I have gone years without drawing as a result, and it creates massive confidence problems, and so this was a way for me to break out of that stagnation. I think about during this time, I had not quite barely left my cult but was still freshly out too. I was in a weird state of limbo. And it was really messing with my head and my ability to just sit and draw and vibe.

    The project started in 2024, but my tablet ended up getting broken by my autistic son. Absentminded curiosity... Not a meltdown. I was devastated. He knows better now. That was life shattering for me... I don't even want to talk about the ugly crying.

    At that point, I didn't think I'd be able to ever replace it. Poverty is a b*tch. For me that meant digital art was over. My dreams of learning and doing digital art, poof gone. (Please no yucky thanks for birth control ad comments... this is a risk parents take having kids. Sh*t gets broken sometimes. Lots of lessons for everyone to learn. It's life. It's a consequence of bringing life into the world. Parenthood isn't for the faint of heart.) 

    Anyways, it was bought for my birthday back in 2008/09. A wacom Intous 4. They are expensive, and the fact that mine ran as long as it did without problems, was a huge feat of engineering and quality. (Not a paid endorsement, personal opinion. 10/10 would buy again.)

    Well thankfully, a friend of mine bought one for me for Christmas. And I didn't have to go long without one. I bawled my eyes out. Another Wacom tablet, one with wifi, chargeable and wireless or wired, touch screen. Pretty cool stuff. I was only able to finish these bookmarks and a ton of other works in progress because of her.

    So due to the fruits of my labors and the generosity of my friend, I have shared my finished bookmark projects on DA for others to print, color, and laminate.

    Below is an example of the bookmarks in an all in one file. They are also split. You will find links to them on my Other Freebies page here:  https://artofladyseshiiria.blogspot.com/p/other-freebies.html full resolution downloads. You may use the for personal use only, I retain full copyrights, and they may not be mass produced or sold. It is free content, please respect my wishes, and thank you for understanding. As an exception, if you are a teacher and would like to print this out for class, that is fine. You are welcome to do so. 

Crochet Pattern Testing Success!

    Skyrim Inspired Dark Brotherhood 'We Know' Crochet Tapestry 

    A call back to this post here: https://artofladyseshiiria.blogspot.com/2026/01/crochet-pattern-testing-ugh.html

    I was working on something that I'd been sitting on for quite a while. At least ten-ish years mind you! Lol, I had been inspired to finally "do the thing" because of a friend request. Hers is a completely different game though.

    That said, between hours and hours of development, pattern testing, stitch testing, tension troubleshooting, frogging, more testing, it's finally finished! If you haven't read my other post, I suggest you do because I talk about a lot in there especially stitch fiddle and chart-minder. (Not a sponsored endorsement.)

    Ta-da! A Skyrim inspired Dark Brotherhood crochet tapestry! 

    For those not familiar with the Dark Brotherhood, it's a faction of cultist Daedric assassins in the Elder Scrolls games. My crochet was specifically inspired by Skyrim. The phrase 'We Know' is found on missives sent to the player after committing a certain type of crime. For those that haven't played the game, I don't want to put any more spoilers in the mix. Let's just say that the Night Mother and Sithis would be very proud. 

    And it's pretty!

    I am quite proud of how it turned out. I went to extra mile too making sure all my stray tails were sewn into the back as discreetly as possible! Here's the backside!

    I like the cleaner look that intarsia gives. It feels way more professional to me than the stranded floats method. (If anyone is curious I used Premier Yarns Just Worsted, and it is soft. Also not sponsored.)

    Here's what the mess kind of looked like on the back before it was finished. There was around a total of 26 tails to weave in when I was done.

    Here's a close up on the fringe as I was making it.

    If I can figure out how to afford it, I think I'll make another in reverse colors. I thought it would be cool to see it like a bloody hand print this time instead of the usual black. I also had to change the font to a small degree to get it to work in the overall design and be seen well.

    So what do you think? Pretty cool huh? I know I'm obsessed. 

    Hail Sithis!

Crochet Pattern Testing... Ugh...

    I started another crochet project a couple days ago... around Sunday-ish? It was inspired by a friend asking for something similar but from another video game. (Well in truth, a reminder of something I was sitting on for a very long time in chart-minder. At least 10 years now...) She wants to commission me, but I don't do commissions. I don't really know how to charge for them all that well. If I charge appropriately so that I'm not being taken advantage of, taking into consideration my skills, my time, and the cost of materials, nobody these days seems to want commissions because it's "too expensive." Or they feel like they're being taken advantage of... Sighs...

    And on the opposite end, if I undercut myself, only charging for materials, then my time and my skill get taken advantage of, as well as undermining every other artist or craftsman on his planet. Thusly contributing to a narrative that art is not a luxury but a cheap commodity to people. Which is bullshit.

    Traditionally arts and artisan crafts, if not gifted and shared freely through a gift or trade economy, they were highly expensive and paid for by people of wealthier means, or created by those in meager means for themselves and their families to enjoy.

    Today, we live in a society where everybody wants everything discounted or free because they got used to the Chinese economic model (and other countries) which comes from indentured servitude and slave labor. Labor up until recently was invisible to the world at large. People these days do not have an appreciation for actual labor and / or skill, and it reflects in our economy and has devastated our societies globally. I'm not pointing a finger at you like I'm on a high horse. We're all so very guilty. Including myself. We've been groomed to be that way. It's everybody's fault and nobody's fault at the same time, we are a product of an old system and an environment we both created wittingly and unwittingly as a society... 

    Anyhoodles... Artistic skill can be developed and this idea of talent just popping out of nowhere is complete b*******. Talent comes from skill. Just like doctors have to learn how to do surgery or a pharmacist has to learn chemistry, artists oftentimes spend years and decades learning and honing their craft. So we need to really change the way we see our world, our friends, family, and our community in the creative pursuits departments. 

    That said, I want to keep this particular thing (crochet) as a hobby, and gifting my time is my prerogative. I'm probably just going to make the thing for my friend at materials cost anyway, because she does things for me from time to time, and there seems to be a good balance of reciprocity here, in a mostly healthy relationship. (Albeit it's a new friendship still.) For example she gave me some toilet paper last night because she had extra. So there's obvious reciprocity there. 

    There's nothing wrong with doing things for people for free or cheap, but we need to do so under a mindset of gift giving without expectation of reward, and definitely not under a mentality of harming small businesses and artists. This means educating people on the cost of craft sometimes. It's not a bad thing, because honestly, you might just appreciate that thing someone made you even more.

    If you look at the cost of doing something in crochet with time and the labor involved, and appropriately charged for it. You find that very few people want to pay for that skill and it's why so many creators only sell patterns and not the actual creations. (Yet people will pay for a brand name like Nike or Prada. Over priced garbage made by slave labor. Not in anyway, a jab at the people doing the slave work.) Why people choose to gift art wisely to people close to them who they know will appreciate the work.

    Onto my project, which is a tapestry. I'm actually working on two projects, because I'm waiting for her to buy supplies for hers, and I am going to work on mine and dial in technique before working on hers which is slightly less difficult but also detailed. I needed a refresher on techniques...

    I've frogged mine at least 8-12 times. Various variations and testing are teaching me how to make the graphic’s phrase look cleaner and clearer. I had to stray from the original font to a degree, that stitch fiddle and chart-minder both automatically fill in. I can see why tons of people have this image saved in their apps but no one has ever done it. It’s advanced level tapestry. (Not an official endorsement of either product. I am not sponsored.)

    Mind you steeeeep learning curve for me because I went from only ever doing one tapestry as a beginner to picking it up almost 2-3 years later after forgetting techniques...

    It’s been a tedious project to say the least, with a lot of a testing, rapid color changes - sometimes every stitch, and you have to make sure the tension is consistent with those changes, etc… A lot to keep track of. I looked online to see if anyone else had done my particular game's design idea. I got the sense rather quickly that there are a lot of folks with aspirations to do this particular image as a project, but perhaps felt daunted by it or gave up? (I almost threw in the towel myself.) 

    I noticed someone tried uploading this graphic to etsy for sale, hopefully no sales because holy hell scammolla, that and selling fanart... It was taken down or expired, thankfully and is just page remnants. I find it to be quite a**h*lish that they just tried to sell the chart without showing a finished product example from said chart. To me that's a red flag sale not testing to see if their chart even worked. (Fine if it's free, whatever, but you were trying to grift!!! *ssh*le.) 

    I found out with mine really quickly, I had to redo my chart at least 8-12 times during development, deciding on how to execute the phrase with actual testing and frogging, and then changing stitch counts, the width, and the length of the chart overall, to see if it would work better. You can't just design something without execution and expect it to work, especially something that complicated. In other words you can’t just slap this f****r into either app and go. I had to delete pixels and add pixels to fix this chart to make the tester clearer. I tested different stitches between single crochet and a half double crochet. I had to troubleshoot wavy material, had to troubleshoot how to pull and tug on my tails, and where to keep or carry them. I troubleshot intarsia and stranded floats even. A lot of work goes into pattern development and testing and I think a lot of people do not realize the work that artists who appropriately charge for their work, are charging for. Many folks don't sell patterns at the cost they should for compensation and take losses in order to get their work out there, hoping to make back enough money through sales eventually. Whether they do or not is up for debate.

    Ultimately I decided on single crochet, it was the best and most consistent for what I was doing. I also had to make sure to test proper turning procedures with either stitch, because obviously if you’re using single crochet, you’re going to want to chain one before turning. Apparently, with half double crochet none, one, or two, it didn’t matter I got waving… It also stands to reason that with an HDC and because the stitch is wider and taller, which that’s kind of what I wanted to go for earlier on for a broader easier cleaner viewable image- the wider stitch causes the tension issue in a sense because it starts to fan out over the tapestry. It causes the foundation chain to feel like it shrunk and it feels too tight. I even tried when I was testing the HDC using a larger hook for the foundation chain, and one size smaller for the actual tapestry but that didn’t work either. Each test came with more calculations, and it's own headaches, and literal physical pain... (I'm stiff, sore, and I threw my back out...) I was afraid I was going to run out of yarn at one point, as I’m using what’s already on hand. It’s been a difficult process. I’m about midway, half way point in the actual tapestry at the time of writing this, and about 45 percent if you consider fringe and attaching the dowel. 

    I was trying to write written instructions but this pattern required my full attention, and I had to drop my writing in favor of testing. Notes have been made, I probably could write it down very easily now that I’m seeing results.

    All in all I would rate this graphic I am working on as advanced level for tapestry crochet and not for the faint of heart. Doing it will require a lot of patience, and time, slow methodical approach, and full attention. Perhaps a lot of frogging and adjustments too for even the most experienced of crocheters.

    If I were to charge for something similarly complex and original, at minimum wage: $7.25 per hour where I live, plus projected 80 hours time, plus materials at around $15. I would still severely be undercutting myself... My projection on the low end came out to be $595.00 for the tapestry... You're probably choking right now... On the high end and what's probably closer to appropriate would be $1215 for lower end but still skilled labor at $15 an hour. This of course including pattern development, testing, and finishing the product, because many people come to artists with a raw artistic vision they want to bring to fruition which causes there to be a lot more involvement time wise, and a lot more iterating. And I don't know about you but I can't afford that. I barely survive on $10 a day if that, sometimes $5... Being in poverty is a super power...

    In the meantime, I'm keeping this project(s) vague. I might share the chart for the one I'm currently talking about? I am unsure as of yet... I might just make it and post my results though too. I'm not going to promise anything. What I have learned is that I will be able to do my friend's tapestry, although also with a lot of color changes, will hopefully be easier even if only slightly so. 

Sorry if I ramble... I'm exhausted. 

Carrot Felt Toy Sewing Pattern

    Alright this one was inspired from sm commentary... and because of the felt sweetroll, found here: https://artofladyseshiiria.blogspot.com/2026/01/skyrim-inspired-felt-toy-sweetroll.html Though, I didn't make this pattern specifically for fanart purposes. It's an original standalone piece. 

    I got some hilarious but lewd comments on social media and the whole "sweetrollussy" thing that has been meme'd to death has brought this about. So replacing the stupid eggplant emoji with something realistic and colloquially appropriate to how I grew up. We get the picture below...

Soo...yeah, those comments kind of birthed this particular carrot pattern... 

    I know there are already like tons of felt toy carrot patterns online but I drafted mine to specifically "fit" my other toy and for other future secret project plans... (I am not yet ready to talk about those and I am desperately trying to acquire supplies still... Playing it close to the vest here...) So dimensions for this pattern are going to definitely be different from other patterns out there. 

    Hey, even if you're not a elder scrolls fan, you can probably appreciate this in a pretty clean way too! I don't want to ruin a good thing here just because of online communities low brow humor... I like to look at it as a reflection of reality. Not all carrots are the same shape or size. When we buy produce from the store you get all sorts of stuff, even more so when you home garden. I've seen some weird carrots bending around rocks and such. Very resilient plants. So if you're out looking for kids kitchen pretend play patterns using a variety in carrot sizing would actually be kind of cool in my opinion, and you can use it as an authentic teaching aid in the real world sense that plants don't consistently grow the same exact shape every time. 

    And, yes, before you ask... I was actually going to make felt food before this happened! Carrots were on my list for multiple reasons. Innocent and nice reasons. Mind you!

    You will find the pattern and tutorial below. I like making Google.docs because you can pull them up on your phone or tablet while you work. I find it super convenient.

Skyrim Inspired Felt Toy Sweetroll Sewing Pattern

 

    First a bit about the artwork...

      I wanted to make something for my kid for Christmas but it turned out no matter how hard I looked online there was no sewing pattern for a sweet roll. (I will generally find something before drafting my own thing if I can to save time...) I would have thought after almost 14 years at that point in time, that someone in the artistic community would have made one out of felt for a prop or cosplay or something. But nope. So here I was already drafting and testing in October of 2025 and was the first to create a sweet roll from felt. 

    I spent a couple weeks pattern drafting and I tested it, uploaded and documented results to build hype. As I was undergoing this journey it occurred to me, that the anniversary was incoming and soon. Then I was thinking of posting the pattern at one point because I was like, "why not make someone else happy for Christmas too?" (Not to mention the faux food fights that I can imagine being had at cosplay conventions.) Thusly the pattern and tutorial started ramping up more seriously as I took the anniversary into consideration. 

    

    On my second iteration and test, it wasn't until I was almost done making the darn thing and tutorial that I found out Bethesda sells a soft plushie. You can thank our d*mn phones for listening (AI listening to everything,) because I legitimately didn't know. I found it irritating but I'd already spent all this effort creating and hyping it, so I'm dedicated... Never even thought to look. But now I freaking want one so badly... Anyway, I just decided to keep going. My thing, I feel isn't going to hurt them. They have official collectors content and I'm just some *sshole fan artist online.

    Last year, (2025) I made my deadline and I released this bad boy on various social media websites on the anniversary of Skyrim 11/11. The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim came out back in 11/11/11. I couldn't have been maybe 21 at the time. Barely. I remember preordering the collectors edition of it for my birthday knowing I was giving myself a late birthday gift. That, and I also remember being super excited having been a long time game fan. Man, Oblivion and Morrowind hijacked my love for Zelda. I am obsessed with TES games.

    Anyway, at the time I didn't realize just how significant that date was or how it would be for me in the future. I just thought they were being dumbly kitschy at the time. I grew up in a cult... So astrology and tarot were not in my deck of cards at the time. Haha, pun intended. I know I promised on my about page to stay away from politics and I know religion is intertwined here at times. So I apologize but this is a bit necessary... Especially if you're to fully appreciate the creation and work behind this.

    Part of my healing journey when leaving a cult was diving into my games again, at first for comfort, then from a fresher perspective and seeing things from a newer educated lens. This meant for me diving into the occult more and not so superficially like I had in the past when looking up things online about TV shows and games... Many of our games, books, and other media as a lot of people are aware, are influenced by not just other cultures and religions, but in fact deep occult, the esoteric, and mysticism, from many religions both ancient and in some cases a bit more recent as things innovate. 

    Since having been born into a cult, I was brainwashed using a combination of the bible and another book we read from, (I don't want to be sued by that "church" so I'm omitting certain information here,) as well as stop thoughts, a blend of communistic and socialistic models and a weird form of capitalism and prosperity gospel injected in along with guilt and shame dynamics and various forms of abuse. When we left, after diving deeper in attempts to go all in, having grown up in it, we found things that conflicted with others, so much hypocrisy and lying. It was a giant rabbit hole that just went deeper and deeper, and we became Alice... The further we went the more we found con-artists and liars, we even found occultists and witchcraft. The very things we were told to stay away from. 

    Fastward forward to last year. I started sewing again in order to get out of my head and back into the present, to push out of a deep depression. 11/11/11 accidently became my doorway... You see, I had been reading and researching, reading the bible from more of an agnostic perspective, sometimes waffling into atheism, understandably so with the amount of generational damage I went through. I even started watching tarot channels on Youtube despite not being fully invested, and feeling like all religion was a farce and well...pardon my French bullsh*t. 

    Currently I am not sure how to feel about religion on the whole, but I respect peoples rights to their beliefs still. As I started watching tarot curiously not really linking it with my sewing, I started seeing numbers showing up consistently. 1, 11, 111, 1111, 11:11, in the forms of time, dates, in my readings, time stamps, likes on videos or comments, you name it, it was everywhere. I still hadn't put it together or linked it yet until a tarot reading this year...

    With Skyrim's anniversary being 11/11 and my pattern honoring its anniversary in combination with all of that jazz above I found that I might have unlocked something subconsciously and later consciously. Is it a sign? Perhaps? But I definitely tapped into something... Currently we are going through something called the Lion's Gate. I am not entirely sure what that means, because this isn't a place I've read a lot about quite yet...

    What 11 means... 11 is a master number and it is associated with:

• Awakening / Initiation
• Alignment between inner and outer worlds
• Creation through intention
• Stepping into a new identity or timeframe

    In short it means something is turning on. Seeing a lot of 11's is read as I am aligned, I am paying attention, and I have crossed a threshold or a threshold moment. 

    11:11 Specifically, is often described as a portal, a moment when the veil is thin, and a signal to pause and notice. Meaning thoughts in that moment are potent, and my intention is amplified.

    So why talk about all of this? Well because not only is it a part of my healing journey but the timing on this art piece and pattern matters in my personal journey and story. From a certain lens, these details are not random. I created and released something on 11/11 and it was tied to a game that was released on 11/11/11 and after initiating this process it increased awareness of light codes and angel numbers in new age philosophy. I unconsciously and then started to consciously activate an energetic cycle connected to creativity, identity, and expression. 11 is strongly associated with artists, messengers, and people creating something meaningful meant to reach others. So it becomes confirmation not coincidence. 

    This tells me I'm on the right path and to keep going even though all of my current readings are saying that cycles and things for me are ending in certain areas of my life, I'm reading that as social media like Instagram... soul sucking bad words... I need to stay conscious and continue to keep this momentum moving forward. This change, this period of time matters a lot to me. My identity was smothered as a child and teen, the cult I grew up in was a big part of that. And so I masked a lot to align with authority, and being neurodivergent I masked around others including peers because of bullying so I got the clamp down hard... 

    Here's a bit of woo-y fun...

• Virgo Rising - Emphasis on craft, usability, and intention
• Gemini Sun - Patterns, translation, narrative continuity and communication
• Sagittarius Moon - Meaning, truth, honoring the bigger picture or story 
• INFP-T - Values-led, quiet conviction
• Fire Snake - Timing Strategy, transformation rather than noise

    

    A new year begins, a new me... I am choosing myself, acting without permission, and creating and no longer waiting for opportunity. 

    In closing...

    Don't chase portals, don't force manifestations, don't wait for permission or validation. 

    Manifesting Without Forcing. Letting Go But Also Creating Opportunity To Make It Happen.
    

    I am an artist, I am a creative, people want to see what I create. I want to spread joy and fun, and bring value into the world. What I create brings value to people and helps me generate more ideas and in turn create more. I am an artist, I am a creative, people want to see what I create.

New Year, New Me?

I have decided to move over to a blog style kind of content posting as I am so tired of social media, the rat race, the influencers, the greed, the division, etc... you name it so my first post on this blog is essentially me mentally preparing myself to move over into this format after so many years waffling on it.

In the coming weeks and year, you can expect to see original and fan artwork, projects being discussed, patterns and other usable content being shared. I feel kind of overwhelmed by this and it's a bit daunting but here I am. I'm choosing to exist within this space, here and now for a reason.

I'm not yet sure how I'll be posting on here, how to archive and divide it. I'm going to play with some things for a while and get aquatinted with it first before dedicating to a permanent post flow.

For now, at least until I'm migrated over, you can find me in IG, X, Bluesky, DeviantArt, Artstation, Tumblr, Ko-fi, and Patreon. I plan on shutting down X for sure, IG is going to be the hardest one for me. I'm still deciding on whether to leave it up as a redirect, or shut it down completely. Bluesky is a possibility of a redirect, might shut it down too. DeviantArt will stay because I can use it as an art portfolio and cross post, it's where I came from in the early days and where most of my community is based. IG will be hard, I built a community there but it started causing mental health decline and other issues for me. I'm hoping to somehow get folks from over there migrated into finding me elsewhere. If not, I guess it's 6 years wasted. Sacrifices must be made. Tumblr for now stays because it's a blog and I can cater it to what I want to see and not see, less toxic than IG in my opinion and I can cross post there. 

Ko-fi and Patreon were kind of in hopes that I could become self employed at one point, but I'm feeling pretty ambiguous towards them. It feels more like a headache to me. All the fees, the keeping track of things, taxes, legal, and self employment stuff seems overwhelming to me. As someone who is ADD ADHD and possibly autistic SEO and metrics, taxes, and all that is overwhelming and overloading and I'd rather be in a place where someone else can deal with it and let me just create and hang out with folks. To be honest, I don't even care about SEO or Metrics.

Until then, I just want to remain a hobbyist...

If you really want to support me, the best places to do so for the time being would be DeviantArt, Tumblr, and Here. 

I could also use help with supplies through gifting things from my Amazon wishlists. They help with my mental health and help me continue to create. I'll link this for now, my current project: https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/3KO0HZTVUG366?ref_=wl_share (I would definitely prefer gifts from my wishlists over donations on Ko-fi or Patreon its less headache, thank you.) Everything I share here is created freely and independently by a human artist and not AI. I want to invite people into my space and create joy. Not expectation.

Support is always optional and never comes with expectations, rewards, or requests. Thank you for understanding.

If you would like to get an idea of the kinds of things I am doing please check out my DA here: https://www.deviantart.com/ladyseshiiria it'll at least give you a start on what I'll have available here.

I'm going to try to get my sewing patterns and crafts posted up soon. For right now my downloadable content goes through Google drive as I'm not really sure what is out there that keeps folks safe. Google drive has allowed my virus scanning protections so I hope that will be sufficient for others as well.

I know I do not yet have trust built up here, so please give me some time, and hopefully I can get this blog off the ground. Thank you for reading and being willing to hang out here. It means a lot to me, more than I think folks realize.